made it this far
everything worked out once
so what makes you think
it falls apart now
tougher than this
faced more before
never tripped yet
don’t lose balance now
Author Archives: notificationsofnonsense
sad boys
sad boys
live sad lives
in this sad town
in this sad world
with these sad wounds
that sadly won’t heal
with these sad smiles
and sad jobs
in this sad house
where even the walls cry.
cant you see?
will the pearly whites just slam shut
and stop that volatile spittle from spewing
i just dont have time to deal with your desires
your agenda is far from first
on the list of what matters at this moment to me
Mother
no one can pamper you
like a Mother can.
no one makes better mac and cheese;
or hot chocolate
just after you’ve come inside
from building a snow fort.
no one makes a better breakfast
on a lazy Sunday.
no one gives a better hug
than a Mother can.
no one gives better advice
when you don’t know what you’re doing
with your life.
no one is more comforting
when you’re having a rough day.
hell, No One else knows you well enough
to notice something was wrong.
untenanted words
I write songs with no music
I write hooks with no beat
I fly with no wings
I run with no feet
I drive with no wheels
Do you know how that feels?
I think with no brain
They call me insane
I swim with no air
I’m a broke millionaire
I act with no part
I end with no start
I love with no heart
That’s why I’m falling
apart
i guess that’s what drugs are for
take me out of my head
just for a few hours
a few minutes
anything, really.
stop the racing
thoughts of inadequacy
that constantly badger me.
i guess that’s what drugs are for
but they don’t seem like the answer,
not this time at least.
a temporary solution
to this permanent beast.
The Heat of July
Billy walked to his death
and held his head high.
He knew no matter what Judge said
he never told no lie.
He never did shoot that boy,
he wasn’t there that night.
He never did pull the trigger,
he didn’t start no fight.
Now Billy spent the last 4 years
stuck inside a cage.
Barely any sunlight,
only room for rage.
He didn’t let that get him down,
“In my mind I’m free.
I know that I’m innocent,
no matter what they do to me.”
Young Billy walked to his death
and held his head high.
He knew no matter what Judge said
he never told no lie.
Now they tried to say Billy
was a cold and callous killer.
It worried Bill so much,
he could barely eat his dinner.
Billy never hurt no one
he could barely squash a fly,
he was ‘fraid of the charges
and what they could imply.
It was his word against the dead
He knew he stood no chance
They were gonna do away with Billy
without a second glance.
So Billy walked to his death
and held his head high.
He knew no matter what Judge said
he never told no lie.
Billy had one goal today,
to go and die with pride.
He stiffened up that upper lip
and lengthened up his stride.
He walked to the table
and began to shake,
for he knew this was the last time
he’d ever be awake.
So Billy walked to his death
and held his head high.
They killed Billy that day
in the heat of July.
Pride
Well I never thought I was lonely
until I looked her in the eye
and I never thought I needed her
till she said goodbye
and I never thought I was broken
until she helped me heal
and I never knew comfort
like the way she made me feel
and I never knew scared
until my father died
and I never did cry
I guess I had too much pride
This is what I’m all about
grab a pen
write it down
let your heart
fill up with sound
shout it loud
say it proud
say it one thousand
words per hour.
fill the air
with your breath
the voice you own
that baritone
yell it out
have no doubt,
“This is what
I’m all About!”
you Are him.
What do you do
when you look inside you’re own house
and see a stranger.
He looks like you,
he has your clothes.
He’s in your house
but he runs his mouth.
Who does he think he is?
Intruding on your life.
Push him away,
but your only pushing yourself.
When did this happen?
When did you become him?
The White Chicken
So much depends
upon
the off white
chickens
with their yellow
beaks
and life giving
eggs
get back down.
put aside
the thoughts of suicide
so you can let another
dreadful day go by.
sit inside
and wallow in your
lost pride
and feeble attempts
to get past your bedside.
drag out the door.
can’t do this no more.
big bad max provides relief,
albeit it brief.
best bros make it better
but not for long.
you know where you belong.
Close Eyes To Exit
Close your eyes to exit
This fucked up world.
Put on some music
To drown out the
Thoughts in your head.
Watch a movie
let the pixels dance
and forget about the world
for a little while
POW
The solider knelt,
knees in the dirt,
tired of the hurt.
For months they held him
P.O.W.
Only for an end
like this.
The smooth cold circle on his neck.
His captors said he was an example
for those who might think of freedom
Now just knees in the dirt.
Different from the dirt
on the farm back home.
This dirt yielded no crops
It only held the dead from rising up.
A purple flower blossomed.
Just below his eye
It bloomed, wilted and ran,
down his cheek.
He looked down
as if to examine a spot on his collar,
just before he leaned forward and kissed
the dirt in front of him.
Tribute
It bums me out
that Robin’s dead
cause of the dark thoughts
in his head.
It bums me out
that Robin died
or that he even had
thoughts of suicide.
Face
Put on that
happy face
and don’t disgrace
the human race
just find your place,
your mind; erase.
Lost At Sea
I am lost at sea
and this doggie paddle
ain’t doin’ much
against these twelve foot
monsters
that just keep
coming and coming and coming…
Pain
Try to run from it but
the ground is
a treadmill. Try
to fight it but
you’re punching
a brick wall. Try
to hide from it but
it’s impossible to hide
from yourself.
27
Happiness is the savior of none
But the killer of some
All the 27’s who died
Were searching for something
Or someone.
Roulette
Let’s play roulette
With toy soldiers
You life and
Four boulders
You slip it’s all over
The exit; don’t show her
Within
Within you lies
A symphony
That only
You can make sing,
A chorus that only heeds to
Your voice.
A concert all to
Yourself.
The limitless
Boundless
Infinite
Universe of
Your imagination
Is there for the taking,
Grab hold!
There is no earthly way of knowing
Which direction you might be going,
Flowing down interminable rivers
Into vast seas
And small crannies.
Fly through
The intricateness of
Your mind,
Make all that you see,
Be what you want it to be.
It’s all here
In your head
And your mind will help
You on the way to greatness,
There is no doubt about that.
Dynamics
Don’t try to live forever
Just try to live for now.
Life without death
Is not really living.
There is an interesting dynamic
Between life and death.
There is an interesting dynamic
Between love and sex.
You can’t find love in a hole.
But you can find love in
Warm places
In friendly faces.
Angel
I’ve got an angel
On my shoulder but
The devil’s staring me down
Tried and trying
To keep that frown
Right side down.
15 Minutes
Jump, Shout
Scream, loud
the Game has just been Won.
slow, down
feel, now
the moment you want is Here
live, Now
feel, how?
not what you’d expect
soft, done
now, run
never thought — regret.
The Girl
As she got on her knees,
she was ready,
thoughts running through her head,
sure seemed heavy.
Just do it,
don’t think,
as she grabbed the shaft,
and put it in the hole
where she would laugh.
Oddly warm
and feeling right,
this sure did give her,
much delight.
She was happy now,
and he would be too,
with one quick breath,
she finally blew.
She reached out her hand
coddling the base of the gun,
she pulled the trigger,
now she’s done.
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